babytortus98

I want to take it away To wrap my warmth around your cold aching bones To kiss your tears away To pull the darkness from your golden heart There are times when I close my eyes And I wish as hard as I can And I focus on the abundance of love that fills my body And I trick myself into thinking That maybe it could work But when my shaking hand Reaches to hold yours It's still there That smooth Cold Hard Screen And when my fingers slide down it My lungs deflate And I remember I'm useless That I still can't do Anything.

These four white walls surround me They box me in Restrict my movement But they're peaceful I'm content I talk to these walls Flowers flow from my mouth Filling the space with lovely conversation But every time I open my mouth The walls Fade darker Until one day they go dark "I'm sorry" As they start to crumble Collapsing around me "I'm sorry" As they fall to the ground Leaving me in a big empty space Of nothing. "I'm sorry"

My fingers run over the raised lines on my arm It's hard to breath The tears not quite reaching my eyes A shaky sigh escapes my lips As I yearn for your touch The sting The blood The pleasure My world grows dark My calls for you growing more desperate I need you I'm addicted The pain feels good It makes me feel Like I can be alive for another day That I've punished myself enough To not have to go And I eventually give in Shakily unscrewing you from your place Gripping tightly and gliding you over smooth pale skin Another line of disappointment Of shame Of hate.